When I have a male submissive over my knee and should I see a growing erection, its as if it triggers something in my brain where I feel both a surge of power (as its my ministrations that created the erection) but also this level of just animalistic "rage"...I guess it could be called.
There is no tap-tap-tap with the hairbrush or cane. Its almost as if my compassion is out the window and I just want to punish and inflict serious pain. A desire to hurt....as a sadist would. :)
Please don't misunderstand. I am still reading his body language and making sure its not over his limitations. Though if I'm punishing a large well built male with a very muscular bottom, I rather doubt I could go beyond his pain threshold. So I beat harder, with a sense of urgency and frustration and that, (here's where its a tad confusing to me) at the same time as intending it to be a "meaningful" punishment session with the intention of teaching a lesson. So, its like "MomDom" melded with "Sexual FemDom" at the same time.
But either way, there is also the attitude of...this is mine. Possession. I own this submissive in more ways than one. And during those moments, I feel free to beat and punish that fantastic muscular rear end and without remorse, no grace, no holding back, just this repetitive motion with a cadence or almost as it a metronome was in sync with the strokes.
And seeing those corded muscles in his thighs and back (should he be shirtless) only drives me on with more enthusiasm. Just this manic desire to, not stop.....
I should mention....there is no point to this message. :)
